Today I woke up at like, 10:30 and we went down to the boat basin at about 11:30 with Hope, Haley, Summer, and Chandler but we were only there about 15 minutes when a guy told us there there was a 4ft alligator in the water, so the kids got freaked out and we left. But later today, we were just like, fuck it, so what if there’s a gator, who the fuck cares. So we went back down there around 4:30 and I had Tiffany come pick me up at 5:45 so I could go to church. When I got to her house, Matt and Chad were there. So I took a quick shower and sat around to 6:45 when me and Tiffany went to the church. Turns out, we weren’t having a lesson and instead we took the church van to Zaxbys with Chad, Tiffany, Lidabeth, Emilee, Matt, Abby, Cory, and Blaire. Then all of us went to Dairy Queen. But what really got me was how Matt is such an asshole to me. I haven’t done anything to him, all I’ve done was ask him if he wanted to go to Stephen’s show with me because me and Matt liked the same music. He said he’d let me know. I asked him a week later and he denied having a phone or internet, which is a complete and total lie because I’ve seen him with his phone. And in the bus today he made it a POINT not to sit next to me and sat between some other people. Then the only time I said anything to everyone was when Chad kept beeping the horn so I brought up Little Miss Sunshine and he just yells out, “I HATE that movie, who likes that?” Like, what the fuck. Leave me the fuck alone, did I offend you with my looks or something.

Also, my mom has surgery tomorrow to get her gallbladder out. And I’m really worried because my mom said she’s seen people wake up screaming from that surgery because they were in so much pain. I can’t imagine my mom having to go through that, it breaks my heart. I’m also scared something’s gonna happen on the operating table and her die or something. I’m just really really scared. I don’t know what I would do if my mom died.